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P.S. I love you

2 Jul

First of a many movies on my bucket list. Today I saw “P.S. I love you” with my bf. I actually should have thought this through; it was night time and I should have picked a different movie, less depressing. As you can probably guess, I am posting this here tonight at 2AM in the morning because I can not sleep…due to post-depressing-movie-syndrome. #fml

So, here is the movie that we watched…

(trailer link): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3GNxdc-wlw4

(Movie link): http://www.gsmovies.com/movie.php?id=4432

I can’t even begin to explain the agony it has brought upon me. Read the synopsis on wikipedia if you don’t wish to see it, but it was so touching. Basically, long story short, “A young widow discovers that her late husband has left her 10 messages intended to help ease her pain and start a new life.” – (IMBD)

Now, during the movie when I was with my boo, I didn’t cry so much…I don’t know I guess the actuality of it all didn’t hit me until a little after, when I got home.

I guess the thought of it all. I think it him me pretty hard, because the main protagonist and her husband reminded me a lot of my boyfriend and I. I mean, just the arguments they have, the kind of things she’s worried about in the beginning, and just in general their experiences, somehow I can really connect with them, and all that happens in the movie just really touches me where I feel it the most… if that makes sense.

I was talking to my friend about it, and she reassured me saying that my bf won’t die or anything and not to worry… but I guess it’s not even just that. Or… maybe it is? I don’t know. Just the thought of it all… really gets me depressed, even though the movie technically has a happy ending, it’s not like he comes back to life, right?

It also gets you to think… life is really unfair. And you start getting kind of paranoid at all the things that could possibly go wrong in your life. I just felt super in despair after the movie ended; almost as if… as if I just didn’t know about anything anymore.

“We’re so arrogant, aren’t we? So afraid of age, we do everything we can to prevent it. We don’t realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. Someone who doesn’t drive you to commit murder or doesn’t humiliate you beyond repair.”

The above is a quotation from the movie that a character says upon spying an old couple together happily. I guess, you could say I’m like that too. I often envy old couples in love, because it…gives me hope in a sense. Gives me something to hang on to, a beacon of hope if you will. I guess you could say, in this messed up world where people are always giving up on each other, when I see two people who have gotten through the hard times, put up with each other through each others shit and were able to stay together through thick and thin, I feel super warm inside. Almost like jelly.

I think if I ever were diagnosed with a terminal illness, I would do the same. Well, not exactly but the same concept; leaving little tidbits of me. But unlike Gerry, I would be terrified; terrified of being forgotten. I guess in that way I’m very selfish and self-centered, but I could not stand for my loved ones to forget about me and replace me…it would just be too much, the thought of it even.

This has just been a night full of deep thought and heartache. I guess it’s arguable that I think too much, and I need to loosen up a bit, but I truly don’t know what to say or think or feel at this moment in time. I just needed to blog it out, and so here I am.

The movie itself, I really loved. I think it’s such an amazing movie and it touched me to the core; the amount of love this man had for this one woman, the things they endured even after death; the reality the movie touches upon. They did such a good job of portraying such a difficult turmoil and I simply can not recommend this movie enough; it may bring me a night filled with tears, depression and provoke my over thinking, but it is definitely something I would watch again. It’s just one of those super memorable, super thoughtful movies! Something like 8/10 for me in terms of numerical ratings!

I’ll end this blog post off with a quote that really touched me… it’s basically the quote that almost ends the movie/the letters she receives:

“Dear Holly, I don’t have much time. I don’t mean literally, I mean you’re out buying ice cream and you’ll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn’t to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It’s to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful… literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you’re sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you’ll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I’m a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I’m just one chapter in yours. There’ll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don’t be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you. “

Please, don’t tell me that didn’t make you cry. I am actually crying as I type, my tears are dripping into my keyboard, what if my laptop water logs….

Thanks for reading. If you haven’t already, hope you decide to give the movie a watch!…



Valentines Day, the Philosophy Bunny and Family Day

25 Feb

SO! Semester 2 in school has officially started like a month ago (ok la, like first week of February… haven’t blogged in FOREVER! My apologies ;__; )

So anyway, this semester one of my subjects is PHILOSOPHY and let me just say, that class is INTERESTING. Two days in a row, my teacher cracked a real egg in class, to show one of the theories stating that, since one has to go half-way before going full-way, and you have to go half-way infinity number of times, technically it is impossible to move… and yet an egg will still fall and crack if you throw it.

^I took that from my seat 🙂 I’m serious, twice, and he did the same with his other classes, so like… 4 eggs gone to waste for PHILOSOPHY?? XD

^Up-close Eggster McEggsicle’s untimely demise.

Speaking of untimely deaths, this is not the only tragedy that has occurred in the philosophy classroom. Here’s the story of the Philosophy Mascot: Une Bunny

Day 1:

^That was the beginning of the Bunny. I found it on my desk randomly one morning, and got VERY excited. I asked my teacher about it, saying I love bunnies. He said “I drew that, knowing your love of bunnies” (tbh I feel like he may be trolling me, what do you think??) but yeah. I was extremely happy and tweeted about it even!

Day 2 and 3:

^THE BUNNY EVOLVED!! On day 2, I found that it had been changed. According to my teacher, it supports the theory that nothing is ever the same, and everything is in constant change. However, the bunny remained the same for day 3.

^To show my support for Bunster McBunion, I wore my Usamimi (ウさ耳)Bunny ears to school too! Met one of Mr. Leo’s friends that day though meow -.- Apparently I looked quite fob that day T_T fml fml fml

 Must impress Mr. Leo friends meow :/


Anywho, after the weekend, Mr. Bunny had been erased. In fact, it was questionable whether he was even there in the first place at all. My friend Illy and I had a mini-funeral for the beloved “Philosophy Mascot” that was, Bunnister Bunbun as we mourned. We then proceeded to draw 2 cats as replacements, but the next day both were erased from existence as well.

I was sad.

But then valentines day came! 😀

Mr. Leo and I weren’t quite planning anything — I didn’t expect anything from him, I was fine with that. I bought him some meiji strawberry chocolate, the apolo kind! Extra strawberry too!

Also bought him some cinnamon candy hearts that I was hoping we could eat together 🙂

Then I wrote him a card and a poem 🙂 I incorporated pokemon into it!! XD I think he liked it ^^ He’s my Nidorino and I’m his Nidorina 🙂 But he loves Charmander the best still! haha 🙂

I would share the poem but I feel like it might be quite private. Should have taken a pic of the little package I gave him but forgot — oh wells. Anywho, I was not expecting anything for V-day, since he said he wouldn’t really do anything. I was quite wrong!!

In my locker when I opened it for lunch, I found cookies and cream chocolate hershey kisses, a chocolate rose and a stuffed rose!! I was so surprised and happy!! As soon as I saw him I gave him the biggest hug ever!! 🙂 ❤

^All of them together on my bed 😀

That night, we also spent time together too ^^ I went over to his place for a bit, and we slept. Then we went to go eat some viet 🙂 Ate so much that night, felt so fat but felt happy anyway 🙂 Thanks for Valentines day Baby!

And then there were some random events in the middle not quite worth mentioning on my blog…

And then came FAMILY DAY! A national (I think??) holiday, where everybody gets a day off (well not everybody, but almost) so that they can spend time with their families! (Good idea right?? People need more quality family time…) The day before there was some family drama, so we could not to Yum cha as I had wished; instead we went for a Greek dinner for family night 🙂 Went to Mr. Greeks! So good, in fact I want to take Mr. Leo there one day.

I ordered myself an Original Souvlaki with chicken. As well we had some bread and calamari for appetizers! And we ordered an alcoholic beverage 😉

^Pretty picture of initial bread basket that came. Nom nom nommed that garlic bread.

^They kept giving us more and more bread baskets, each time with more bread and pita haha! They think we’re fatasses?? 😀

^Calamari 😀 Basically deep fried squid with the sauce?? It’s sooo good! I know it’s mad fattening but I just love it! Tasty.

^My dad trolling in the background. If you look closely, you can see it’s a picture of a cute little car decoration that I sent him LOL This drink, I don’t remember what it was called, but I do remember how delicious I thought it was! Mad love. Ever since my drink at Niagara, I love these sweet tasting alcoholic beverages. Mr. Leo can I get drunk with you one day please? o: Don’t wanna get drunk without him or someone I trust LOL Might do stupid things -.- Maybe I’m one of those stupid drunks fml.

^My Souvlaki ! I love fries okay, guilty pleasure…. and I LOVE Greek salad!! It’s one of my faves 🙂

After we stuffed ourselves with Greek delight, we went to walk it off at a Korean supermarket 🙂

I found some interesting things I’d like to share…


^So, I don’t know if you guys know what “Natto” is, but it’s basically a food product made of fermented soybeans. I love it, but this particular one disturbed me… If you can’t read it let me just say, the label says 「ぶっかけ」… Like, Bukkake. The food company named their Natto “Bukkake” …. if you don’t know what it means, please google it. DISCLAIMER: Not my fault if you are disgusted with search results. Yeah… I was like

Then, we bumped into a dumpling add in the supermarket…

HAHAHAHA!! Please tell me you find his face funny also!! The longer you look at it the more you laugh okay!! He should totally be a meme, his face is tooo meme-worthy mrow.

Okay! Done my interesting blogging for now! haha 🙂 Now just time for my random kamho pics that you don’t wanna see…

^Looks quite nice right?

^Me, trying to be sophisticated and sexy….failed orz

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I love Biore! and Abel Drama Field Trip!

5 Jun

*Picture Heavy!*

OK. So let me start off this entry by saying…. I LOVE BIORE PRODUCTS OMGG!! Actually, I HATE biore pore strips, cause pore strips in general are like, an ENEMY to skin. But like, their face 化粧水…ermm lotion? moisturizer things are sooo good! Like, it leaves your face feeling fresh without being greasy and overtop. This is the one i’ve been using for the past few years that I am in LOVE with …

Unfortunately, when my mother went back to Japan a few months ago, they didn’t have this particular one on the shelves…. so she bought me 3 different kinds to test out! 🙂

First one is the Rhoto Hada Labo Skin Conditioner!

I love this! I use it after I wash my face in the morning or any other time during the day (besides nighttime) because, it leave my face fresh and ready. However, it does tend to keep my face kind of dry, so thats a con. I usually have to apply 2 coats of it for it to keep moisture. But its nice, and not gross by any means, so I’m pretty in like! 🙂

The next two are the ones I camwhored madly with! Firstly, the Kaneko Pururi one…

ok. So at first I liked this one. it looked like this when i first used it, and i thoguht it was great:

Thats how it looks like.

After though, I realized I reacted super badly to it ;___; and gave me an allergic reaction! So I gave it to my little sister to try out (different products work for different people!)

This last one is the new product I’m pretty much loving… The Biore Cream-In moisturizer!

Its beautiful! The packaging was also so beautiful! Pretty peach colour is it not? 😀 Mad love ❤ !

Thats what the product looks like. As you can see, its super watery but has cream within the watery moisture! It’s absolutely my favourite because my skin doesn’t get dry, but because its a “watery” kind, it also doesn’t become greasy! A MUST for summers! 🙂

Side by side comparison of product aesthetics… tee hee !

Camwhoring with my beloved product!

Im gonna squirt you!! bwahahahahaha!!

Me camwhoring with the product that burned my face off…. because I’m INCLUSIVE!!!! I’m so nice, right? hahaha no I’m just a camwhore.

In case you were wondering, what I wore that day!…

I’m a happy child. And my skins damn happy too. I just wanted to share the awesomeness of Biore XD….I got excited cause my mom brought it back for me and I just LOVED it! Had to blog it.


Abel Drama trip!

Okay. well. So, basically we went to an elementary school to watch their videos they did, based on things we taught them 🙂 I just wanted to share my camwhore pics…sorry. xDD

Thats me and my friend Nojan. He’s a Boss. Actually. LOOL

Me an Cliffie. I love how were both looking same way, very spontaneously!  😀

Me an Shkeeemm 😀 Why I look so awks?

Me and Xue Xuen. He didnt wanna camwhore with me, so i tol him to sit in a corner by himself wtf.

Last but DEFINITELY not least, my Vonne. http://inkscraps.blogspot.com/2011/06/todays-special-abel-project-fire.html visit her blog to get more info about the abel trip. She’s not lazy bwahahahahaa. XD

An lemmie finish with me…being a mad camwhore wtf.

erm…this looked better on my camera wtf. my eyes are baggier than usual 😦 errrmmm….. someone get me a dosage of sleep please? 😀

What I wore that day!!! ROMPERS!! 😀

I kno u wannu touch mai pompom!! 😀

Nyaaaaaa :3

Everyone make monkey face laike mee! 😀

Last one I promise. I have a huge smile oh noes. D: don’t be swallowed!

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Ok thats all for today! 😀